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Happy 2011!!! ^^
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
2011 is TOXIN ALERT!
Brain: Hey, how are you?
Kidney: Here, flushing her toxins..
Heart: More toxins here, kid, have you got them yet?
Kidney: Uh, yeah. Did she add more though?
Heart: Yeah I guess. The Brain has to tell you to get it. Isn't is supposed to be automatic of some sort?
Kidney: Yeah I know. Maybe he lets you, heart, have your way instead of the Boss Brain this time.
Brain: Oops, sorry. TOXIN alert! I have been sleeping...
***
This 2011 is a year of the TOXIN alert. The Big Boss is the Brain, but The Kidney has to work her hardest. The heart has to submit to the Boss.
Kidney: Here, flushing her toxins..
Heart: More toxins here, kid, have you got them yet?
Kidney: Uh, yeah. Did she add more though?
Heart: Yeah I guess. The Brain has to tell you to get it. Isn't is supposed to be automatic of some sort?
Kidney: Yeah I know. Maybe he lets you, heart, have your way instead of the Boss Brain this time.
Brain: Oops, sorry. TOXIN alert! I have been sleeping...
***
This 2011 is a year of the TOXIN alert. The Big Boss is the Brain, but The Kidney has to work her hardest. The heart has to submit to the Boss.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Boredom and Bravery
“Brave people may not live longer, but coward people don’t live at all.”
***
I have been stuck in my house ( except when I went out for my checkup ) for the whole day. I have been sick for a couple of days now.
When I get sick like this sick, I am usually in bed ( lying down ) or in the sala drinking some liquids or eating a bit of something. Yes, if not for the lose of appetite and the increase of temperature ( leading to an increase in metabolism ), it would be safe to say I have been pigging myself.
Thanks to television, however, I realize that I could have some form of a distraction from sickness..and yes, from boredom.
A person once said that if you start to get bored, it only means that you may need to do the purpose God has given you.
Sometimes, I feel very blessed I can have much time off. I have a fixed morning shift ( 6 am to 2pm, which just fits my body clock, since I NORMALLY get up at 5am), unlike my friends who are nurses or in the call center industry where they change shift time crazily. So far, I have not been bored yet of my job. Thank God.
But honestly speaking, my life is not more about my job. I have some organizations and meetings after 2pm. Sometimes though,with all these meetings, ministry, or organization, it gets boring, especially when the people I am with don’t have the same vision and passion as I have.
Vision and passion should be moved , and it takes bravery to do so.I don’t consider myself as someone who has totally overcome any sense of insecurity or fear. I have danced solo in public with strong, powerful, jazzy kinda step, but it doesn’t mean I didn’t ask for a repetition of the song because I got so ashamed at first. Every 2nd Tuesdays for our hospital visitation ( which we get to pray for the sick in the ward at CCMC ) , I have worn a glass so that my former classmates may not recognize me ( to avoid them asking how I have gained my weight or where I work ). These kinds of activities that I have done, do, or will do are not the most convenient and comfortable...but at least I try to do them, not because I have to, but because I believe I am called to do them.
So back to the people who should share my vision and passion. I really want to hang out with people who are dreamers. I mean, those who , amidst all bleak circumstances, still believe they can be someone or can do something. People may think I am queer or just pure ambitious, but I dream a lot. I always think I can do something. You know, make a film, paint a canvass, write a story, construct a REAL ( truly creative, well-thought of...not just forming an excuse of free writing for bad poetry ) poem, dance interpretatively a rock song, or... build a school, create a business, employ people, marry a handsome, rich mate ^^. And when you look at me right now, I have gone as far as just 1 over 1,000 steps for my desired dreams. At least a step...^^
That is probably I get glued on art. I mean, I don’t call myself an artist ( although my artist friend and sister say I am ) but I am drawn to art. Art may have rules and all, but at least, through time, it is bound to be broken. As my favourite art theorist say, art is just like breathing or eating...everybody can do it. Maybe really, I love art because it makes you free. You are in control of the colors you choose, the texture of the painting, the symbolism, the message you may want to relay. You can even practice art just by the way you speak or the content of your words. Every form of an expression is an art; ergo, art makes you free.
So where am I going to this? Hmmm. I can say brave people are those who can express themselves for the purpose of a movement to their destiny. Not all artists are brave. Some artists ( who really are gifted ) lack courage, so they don’t excel. ( Ironically, some just uhm mediocre on the gift of artistry, struggle and are more courageous to do something to succeed ). At the end of the day, what counts is, are you doing your God-given purpose?
Ok back to boredom. When people get bored, they may get some good or bad idea. People go into a relationship with a lover...or will venture on a different career path...or go out, waste some money, and get wasted. But even in boredom, there is what I call the art of thinking Rationally and Wisely. Frankly speaking, I don’t get it that one talented,pretty, smart, loving, woman can just allow someone who cannot be loving ( plus not smart, talented, etc ) to break her heart. That I say, needs art. Gifts are just worthless when you throw them to the pigs.
Well, I am practicing my art of thinking rationally and wisely in this bored time. It takes more courage to clean my room, organize my finances, plan on my daily activities, etc...especially for a person like me who don’t do these things naturally , if not for the Opportunity of getting sick and staying home. ^^ At least, I am making small steps, and yes, moving to my desired destiny of becoming a businesswoman or a wife for that matter hehe. some small steps at a time. hehe
***
I have been stuck in my house ( except when I went out for my checkup ) for the whole day. I have been sick for a couple of days now.
When I get sick like this sick, I am usually in bed ( lying down ) or in the sala drinking some liquids or eating a bit of something. Yes, if not for the lose of appetite and the increase of temperature ( leading to an increase in metabolism ), it would be safe to say I have been pigging myself.
Thanks to television, however, I realize that I could have some form of a distraction from sickness..and yes, from boredom.
A person once said that if you start to get bored, it only means that you may need to do the purpose God has given you.
Sometimes, I feel very blessed I can have much time off. I have a fixed morning shift ( 6 am to 2pm, which just fits my body clock, since I NORMALLY get up at 5am), unlike my friends who are nurses or in the call center industry where they change shift time crazily. So far, I have not been bored yet of my job. Thank God.
But honestly speaking, my life is not more about my job. I have some organizations and meetings after 2pm. Sometimes though,with all these meetings, ministry, or organization, it gets boring, especially when the people I am with don’t have the same vision and passion as I have.
Vision and passion should be moved , and it takes bravery to do so.I don’t consider myself as someone who has totally overcome any sense of insecurity or fear. I have danced solo in public with strong, powerful, jazzy kinda step, but it doesn’t mean I didn’t ask for a repetition of the song because I got so ashamed at first. Every 2nd Tuesdays for our hospital visitation ( which we get to pray for the sick in the ward at CCMC ) , I have worn a glass so that my former classmates may not recognize me ( to avoid them asking how I have gained my weight or where I work ). These kinds of activities that I have done, do, or will do are not the most convenient and comfortable...but at least I try to do them, not because I have to, but because I believe I am called to do them.
So back to the people who should share my vision and passion. I really want to hang out with people who are dreamers. I mean, those who , amidst all bleak circumstances, still believe they can be someone or can do something. People may think I am queer or just pure ambitious, but I dream a lot. I always think I can do something. You know, make a film, paint a canvass, write a story, construct a REAL ( truly creative, well-thought of...not just forming an excuse of free writing for bad poetry ) poem, dance interpretatively a rock song, or... build a school, create a business, employ people, marry a handsome, rich mate ^^. And when you look at me right now, I have gone as far as just 1 over 1,000 steps for my desired dreams. At least a step...^^
That is probably I get glued on art. I mean, I don’t call myself an artist ( although my artist friend and sister say I am ) but I am drawn to art. Art may have rules and all, but at least, through time, it is bound to be broken. As my favourite art theorist say, art is just like breathing or eating...everybody can do it. Maybe really, I love art because it makes you free. You are in control of the colors you choose, the texture of the painting, the symbolism, the message you may want to relay. You can even practice art just by the way you speak or the content of your words. Every form of an expression is an art; ergo, art makes you free.
So where am I going to this? Hmmm. I can say brave people are those who can express themselves for the purpose of a movement to their destiny. Not all artists are brave. Some artists ( who really are gifted ) lack courage, so they don’t excel. ( Ironically, some just uhm mediocre on the gift of artistry, struggle and are more courageous to do something to succeed ). At the end of the day, what counts is, are you doing your God-given purpose?
Ok back to boredom. When people get bored, they may get some good or bad idea. People go into a relationship with a lover...or will venture on a different career path...or go out, waste some money, and get wasted. But even in boredom, there is what I call the art of thinking Rationally and Wisely. Frankly speaking, I don’t get it that one talented,pretty, smart, loving, woman can just allow someone who cannot be loving ( plus not smart, talented, etc ) to break her heart. That I say, needs art. Gifts are just worthless when you throw them to the pigs.
Well, I am practicing my art of thinking rationally and wisely in this bored time. It takes more courage to clean my room, organize my finances, plan on my daily activities, etc...especially for a person like me who don’t do these things naturally , if not for the Opportunity of getting sick and staying home. ^^ At least, I am making small steps, and yes, moving to my desired destiny of becoming a businesswoman or a wife for that matter hehe. some small steps at a time. hehe
Monday, January 3, 2011
Thoughts of The Richest Man on Earth
I have just witnessed an interview of Carlos Slim, the World's Richest Man in 2010 ( on Forbes' List) on CNN's Larry King Live.
We would be interested in a lot of this man's thoughts. Larry King actually focused on the different aspects, such as on his wealth, responsibility, and life.
There are a lot of things i really just learn from this man.
First, it would be his goal. His goal is not on Money-making. It is Human development through employment and education.
Second, it would be his thoughts on people living in excess. Surprisingly, he doesn't have a big house or many cars or watches. According to him, happiness is not found in buying material things. For him, one cannot be contented when he just lives with too much. One has to learn contentment and real happiness that comes from a good relationship with your family.
Third, his being wealthy encompasses being a blessing to the whole community, with the taxes that he has put on the government, on health care, on education..
Fourth, he sees that being poor is an opportunity for economic development. It makes you learn how to invest and work.
Fifth, being a wealthy man, he shows utter humility. With the way he talks and even with the way he takes off his suit ( and shows his suspenders in front of Larry King, imitating Larry king, for that matter ).
Sixth, he became wealthy because he has been investing, starting at the age of 13. He has been investing and reinvesting.
Seventh, the economy is tied on income distribution. So, money should be distributed ( his purpose on developing companies ) through employment. Also, when people can afford good education, health care issue is protected. Poor health can be a liability, so that should be focused on. Also, when people have good education, they will have better opportunities for employment.
We would be interested in a lot of this man's thoughts. Larry King actually focused on the different aspects, such as on his wealth, responsibility, and life.
There are a lot of things i really just learn from this man.
First, it would be his goal. His goal is not on Money-making. It is Human development through employment and education.
Second, it would be his thoughts on people living in excess. Surprisingly, he doesn't have a big house or many cars or watches. According to him, happiness is not found in buying material things. For him, one cannot be contented when he just lives with too much. One has to learn contentment and real happiness that comes from a good relationship with your family.
Third, his being wealthy encompasses being a blessing to the whole community, with the taxes that he has put on the government, on health care, on education..
Fourth, he sees that being poor is an opportunity for economic development. It makes you learn how to invest and work.
Fifth, being a wealthy man, he shows utter humility. With the way he talks and even with the way he takes off his suit ( and shows his suspenders in front of Larry King, imitating Larry king, for that matter ).
Sixth, he became wealthy because he has been investing, starting at the age of 13. He has been investing and reinvesting.
Seventh, the economy is tied on income distribution. So, money should be distributed ( his purpose on developing companies ) through employment. Also, when people can afford good education, health care issue is protected. Poor health can be a liability, so that should be focused on. Also, when people have good education, they will have better opportunities for employment.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Dancing My Way Out of 2010
It has been an hour now since I opened this blogspot. I have been trying to be creative in presenting my 2010 review, but I always get stuck with it. So, I'll just be spontaneous...^^
2010:
1. went back to writing. I actually had some hiatus last 2009. This blog is an evidence. The major culprits for such an inhibition on that passion are laziness, laziness, and laziness.
2. Formed some groups again. Christian in nature: Ang Lamdag, Himaya Productions. They focus on using art for the glory of God.
3. invested for some Health Insurance, Life Insurance, and Some Investment ( lol ). Now trying to handle my money.
4. Made strong bonds in Friendship: The Zy to be number 1. Yes, for some reason, (I did not expect we would be so close as friends )...but well, we have been so close. I gave her the name by the way.
5. uhm yeah have been foolish to entertain some guys whom I never really knew. Oh God, I trusted easily. A lesson to remember. Thanks to my friends who have been supportive and have accepted me even though I have made these mistakes time and again...^^
6. I haven't travelled to another country this year, but have been to Boracay. It is safe to say it can compete with other countries as a tourist destination.
7. "rebonded" my hair for the first time. haha. this counts ( my hair is NATURALLY wavy to curly ). my image for the year 2010 is the straight-haired Doris.
8. have been into films this year. Some poetry appetizer here and there. Yes the POems of Shit 1,2,3, and more. And some short stories.
9. Himayans: Okay, have been hanging out with these guys for long. They are almost up for anything: Outpost gigs, Music tripping, Movie watching, Observing some painting, Shooting for a photoshoot, helping in Charity works,etcetera...which are my kind of thing.
10. Have performed a solo interpretative Dance ( well this is epic for me haha ), directed/ written "Papil sa Panganduy", and have posed in a Photoshoot. I can even post my write-ups on facebook haha. I also, by the way, joined the Cantata Ministry ( Drama Team ). This is a breakthrough out of all my insecurities and fears that I had been battling for so long, bow. ^^
2010:
1. went back to writing. I actually had some hiatus last 2009. This blog is an evidence. The major culprits for such an inhibition on that passion are laziness, laziness, and laziness.
2. Formed some groups again. Christian in nature: Ang Lamdag, Himaya Productions. They focus on using art for the glory of God.
3. invested for some Health Insurance, Life Insurance, and Some Investment ( lol ). Now trying to handle my money.
4. Made strong bonds in Friendship: The Zy to be number 1. Yes, for some reason, (I did not expect we would be so close as friends )...but well, we have been so close. I gave her the name by the way.
5. uhm yeah have been foolish to entertain some guys whom I never really knew. Oh God, I trusted easily. A lesson to remember. Thanks to my friends who have been supportive and have accepted me even though I have made these mistakes time and again...^^
6. I haven't travelled to another country this year, but have been to Boracay. It is safe to say it can compete with other countries as a tourist destination.
7. "rebonded" my hair for the first time. haha. this counts ( my hair is NATURALLY wavy to curly ). my image for the year 2010 is the straight-haired Doris.
8. have been into films this year. Some poetry appetizer here and there. Yes the POems of Shit 1,2,3, and more. And some short stories.
9. Himayans: Okay, have been hanging out with these guys for long. They are almost up for anything: Outpost gigs, Music tripping, Movie watching, Observing some painting, Shooting for a photoshoot, helping in Charity works,etcetera...which are my kind of thing.
10. Have performed a solo interpretative Dance ( well this is epic for me haha ), directed/ written "Papil sa Panganduy", and have posed in a Photoshoot. I can even post my write-ups on facebook haha. I also, by the way, joined the Cantata Ministry ( Drama Team ). This is a breakthrough out of all my insecurities and fears that I had been battling for so long, bow. ^^
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Dear Frustrated
I know you'll get frustrated.again.
So here I am. still silent. until you speak well of what your plans are. Would you pursue or would you give up.
The decision is a heavy one. It will change the course of your life forever.
and here I am, still waiting. And God is faithful to me. I don't think I need you. I know God will provide that someOne for me. I won't get frustrated if you don't choose me. again.
So here I am. still silent. until you speak well of what your plans are. Would you pursue or would you give up.
The decision is a heavy one. It will change the course of your life forever.
and here I am, still waiting. And God is faithful to me. I don't think I need you. I know God will provide that someOne for me. I won't get frustrated if you don't choose me. again.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
behind the virtual world
kung mutext or muchat ang laki ninyo, musugut ra dayun mu? Can't believe women really go for these guys. ug sa dihang daghana intawun'g lakiha mutext2x ,muchat2x...way lingaw.
unsa jud diay inyu'ng pagtu-u naku, dali ra makuha sa inyu'ng text/chat/?...
well, dili dili dili! hehe. there said. the nerve to ask me personal questions...unya, di pa gani friends. hehe
txtr: "can u b my friend?"
me:"no, u can't.im sorry"
txtr: y not?
me: wah. the nerve to ask me. the question is, y will i? i don't know u. who knows you might be BR, the scammer. this is my last txt. now, you can leave me. God bless.
***
hahay, unya kani'ng facebook sige nlang ku'g offline kay daghan mag message2x dinha ang uban naa nay uyab...o worse, naa nay asawa...biga2x on the net dayun inyu'ng tirada?
kahinumdum lang ku naai laki ni ingun naku sa una nga, "well, i can be your boyfriend on the net...and he can be your boyfriend there"...kung di patuh naku siya migu, hagbay ra naku siya'ng gisagpa! haha kung makasagpa sa virtual world hahah...
***
so kamu babay, please lang, ayaw mug kadesperada, don't cheapen yourself musugut mu'g flirtan ramu sa txt or internet rah! please lang intawun.
unsa jud diay inyu'ng pagtu-u naku, dali ra makuha sa inyu'ng text/chat/?...
well, dili dili dili! hehe. there said. the nerve to ask me personal questions...unya, di pa gani friends. hehe
txtr: "can u b my friend?"
me:"no, u can't.im sorry"
txtr: y not?
me: wah. the nerve to ask me. the question is, y will i? i don't know u. who knows you might be BR, the scammer. this is my last txt. now, you can leave me. God bless.
***
hahay, unya kani'ng facebook sige nlang ku'g offline kay daghan mag message2x dinha ang uban naa nay uyab...o worse, naa nay asawa...biga2x on the net dayun inyu'ng tirada?
kahinumdum lang ku naai laki ni ingun naku sa una nga, "well, i can be your boyfriend on the net...and he can be your boyfriend there"...kung di patuh naku siya migu, hagbay ra naku siya'ng gisagpa! haha kung makasagpa sa virtual world hahah...
***
so kamu babay, please lang, ayaw mug kadesperada, don't cheapen yourself musugut mu'g flirtan ramu sa txt or internet rah! please lang intawun.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Kiss of heaven by Darlene Zschech with Lyrics
This was my favorite song 10 years ago.
Today, i can't get this off of my head. This will always be my life song! ^^
Canada vs. Gethsemane
It’s December again. Christmas time is here. This coat I am wearing cannot suffice the two degree cold. I am freezing. It’s 11 pm. Just got home.
Tired from the day’s work...maybe I can call Grace. Grace...slim, beautiful, witty, smart...I am marrying her soon. And my life is going to be just what I want it to be- a gorgeous wife, beautiful children, big house, and a lot of days of vacation.
God will be pleased with me. I will give to charity...And if I have extra, I can donate it to my church’s programs. And when moments like this Christmas season arrive, my relatives there in Cebu will be delighted. They will expect some packages and presents from me. I still go to church once a week. I am sure that’s enough.
It’s there. I have planned it. This has been my dream...and I have finally gotten somewhere in my Life. I have FINALLY gotten here in Canada.
***
This evening, I feel colder than the usual. My hands are freezing. My sweat dropping like the weather’s so hot...but I feel so cold...so cold.
My body is so uneasy here in this Garden. The place is so quiet, and here I am kneeling. Does it have to be me? Do I have to go there? Do I have to feel every torment?
I can even feel my skin ripped now...and the thorns in my head.
The blood drenches my whole body. It’s the only warm coat that envelopes my body.
“Oh Father, if possible, take this cup away from me....Please...Pleading you, please. (*No answer.)
But then again, not my will but yours be done.”
It’s there. You have planned it. This has been your dream...and I will finally fulfill it in my Life here. I am FINALLY conquering death for THEIR redemption.
***
Gethsemane, garden across the Kidron Valley on the Mount of Olives (Hebrew Har ha-Zetim), a mile-long ridge paralleling the eastern part of Jerusalem, where Jesus is said to have prayed on the night of his arrest before his Crucifixion. The name Gethsemane (Hebrew gat shemanim, “oil press”) suggests that the garden was a grove of olive trees in which was located an oil press.
Tired from the day’s work...maybe I can call Grace. Grace...slim, beautiful, witty, smart...I am marrying her soon. And my life is going to be just what I want it to be- a gorgeous wife, beautiful children, big house, and a lot of days of vacation.
God will be pleased with me. I will give to charity...And if I have extra, I can donate it to my church’s programs. And when moments like this Christmas season arrive, my relatives there in Cebu will be delighted. They will expect some packages and presents from me. I still go to church once a week. I am sure that’s enough.
It’s there. I have planned it. This has been my dream...and I have finally gotten somewhere in my Life. I have FINALLY gotten here in Canada.
***
This evening, I feel colder than the usual. My hands are freezing. My sweat dropping like the weather’s so hot...but I feel so cold...so cold.
My body is so uneasy here in this Garden. The place is so quiet, and here I am kneeling. Does it have to be me? Do I have to go there? Do I have to feel every torment?
I can even feel my skin ripped now...and the thorns in my head.
The blood drenches my whole body. It’s the only warm coat that envelopes my body.
“Oh Father, if possible, take this cup away from me....Please...Pleading you, please. (*No answer.)
But then again, not my will but yours be done.”
It’s there. You have planned it. This has been your dream...and I will finally fulfill it in my Life here. I am FINALLY conquering death for THEIR redemption.
***
Gethsemane, garden across the Kidron Valley on the Mount of Olives (Hebrew Har ha-Zetim), a mile-long ridge paralleling the eastern part of Jerusalem, where Jesus is said to have prayed on the night of his arrest before his Crucifixion. The name Gethsemane (Hebrew gat shemanim, “oil press”) suggests that the garden was a grove of olive trees in which was located an oil press.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Papil sa Panganduy: The Concept, The Process, The People
I SHOULD blog about this film. Well, first because it’s the first film I have directed and written. Heheh. And the rest (reasons)?…read on..
This film was conceived as a project of our Cebuano class. This project about filming or songwriting or documentary was informed to me by my classmate ( since uhm..I had been often absent in class…oops ) last week of August. Most of my classmates were from MA-Communications. Only four of us were from MA-Literature. The filmmaking project was more for the media students. The professor would have asked me another form of a project, but I insisted I could do it (*Remembering my friend, Tabz, who had wanted to make films…I could just uhm “partner” with her ).
Since I believed that my Masteral classes ( 1 of them this Cebuano class ) were” threatened” due to my absences and etcetera, that filmmaking had been my driving force to finish all the way through. However, since I finished birthing the concept, I promised myself that I would finish the film whether or not I would pass my classes. Fortunately, by God’s grace, I passed the midterm exam ( 55/60 ). That gave me vigor to jump-start the making of the film.
Since I knew that my friend, Tabs, had some desire for film making, she was the first person I talked to about my project. I also gave her the concept (which was not yet, at that time, the “final” and used concept).
I had friends I usually met during film showings at The Outpost: Clado and Jorich. They were into films, too. They had joined “Sinebuano”, a group of Cebuano filmmakers. I just happened to chat with them once about our ( me and Tabz’ ) desire to make a film. Clado was kind of adamant to be with us, to help us with the film and all. However, at that time, due to tabz’ uhm lack of confidence yet on “shooting” (whch Clado & Jorich had more knowledge of ), she was hesitant that Clado and Jorich would join with us.
After all the coaxing, Tabz finally agreed, given that she would be the “video editor” instead of the “videographer”, so that she could learn from them. And so, we now had two videographers, an editor, and a script writer.
I wanted the film to end in a “cool but reflective” mood, and I thought of “Better Days” by Andy Calope. His song was about the “corruption in the world and the importance of “listening to your ‘Father’s’ instruction”. So, I asked Andy if we could have his song during the “roll of credits”, and he agreed.* Better Days by Andy Calope:
http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/11/21/2194739/better%20days.mp3
I had a very close friend who loved music so much. Her name was Zy. I asked if she could do the official soundtrack for the film. Surprisingly, after days of telling her my idea about the film, she said she already had the “music”.
The music was there, but the lyrics had not been made yet. I came up with the lyrics for “Papil sa Panganduy”. We also asked our friend, Ebet who had a voice that could do justice to the song, to sing it. With Ebet and Zy’s collaboration, the official soundtrack of the film was arranged and recorded in a raw form:
PAPIL SA PANGANDUY ( clearer version, but no bass etc. ) by doris_ogdoc
***
The Concept
The story, at first, would have been different. As a person passionate about women and their issues, the film would be about women. I had this in mind when I tried to conceptualize the film:
http://ichocomyself.blogspot.com/2010/08/what-level-of-relationship-do-you-have.html
However, I realized that if I would make a 10 minute or less film, I kind of felt that I would have to have more time to display this kind of explanation I had.
In addition, I should have used more Literature and “Cebuano language” theme in the film for the purpose of the Cebuano class project.
As I usually do before any write-up, I prayed to God for an inspiration. At that time, I had been hearing about premarital sex so predominant. And many young women engage in it as it has been practiced by almost anyone who has a romantic relationship ( even with those who don’t have any romantic relationship ). They say we have already been liberated and embraced Western culture much. It is even shown in Philippine soap operas nowadays. The songs, movies, media, etc have great impact on our view on sexual relationships in our days. Now, whether we hate to admit it or not, unwanted pregnancies happen.
The Lord impressed it in my heart that if I really wanted to be a part in changing this nation, I should look on the family issues first. Some women apt for abortion when they have this unwanted pregnancy, especially when they are still studying or when their boyfriends suddenly leave them, or etc. Young children have been called “accidents”. This poses a great effect on the children’s self-esteem. The women raising the child can have emotional and financial responsibilities then for herself and for her child as well. For women who push through the pregnancies, they carry a burden to support the child…that their once beautiful dreams are delayed, or worse, forgotten.
“Papil sa Panganduy” does not just tackle on waiting on sex before marriage, but it is also about waiting for our “dreams” to come to pass. It also shows that we are mere humans that we tend to lose focus and get tempted ( so we do sidetrack instead of doing something about our dreams). Yet, we have to get back on track with God’s strength to help us through.
The Process
Pre – Production
We spent at least 1 to 2 weeks for the planning stage. We needed to look for the cast and crew. Firstly, the main team ( videographers, script writer, music arranger, and editor) was finalized. The next important thing would be the searching for the cast. At that time, we were specific on who to look for. For example, the lead actress should be a “20-year old, Filipina-looking woman”. The challenge for the searching of the cast does not only include the “qualifications” per se but also their availability that would match our schedule as a team. All of us in the production were also tight in schedule because all were working, but we made an agreement that we had all to be together during the shooting. After looking for the cast, we had to scout for locations. We greatly thank the people who allowed us to use their houses and rooms.
The planning on the time, location, and budget for the production phase was also done to save time, effort, and money. ^^
Production Stage
This is the first film we have had as a team. During the shooting stage, we learned a lot about lighting and the importance of video log sheet. We had to record every take on the sheet so that the editor would not have to have so much hassle when finding the best takes and all.
During this stage, I also realized the importance of having great actors, so that the director would not have to instruct the acting much, and that the takes would be few. This saves time and headache. Hehe. Thankfully, we had good and “professional” actors for the film, who could easily get instructions and exceeded even my expectations.
We only spent four afternoons and evenings to finish the production stage. Two weeks after, the production stage was finished. Phew!
Post-Production
Now, this stage is the editing stage. Tabz did the editing part. The rest of us simply gave our feedback. The best part of it all was that Tabz was so easy to understand what we directed her, like on the effects, subtitles, music, etcetera. We are just blessed to have her hehe ^^
The People
When making a film, one should team up with people who are “passionate about it” (*jorich says ).
All of us were not pros, but we all had an intense love for what we were doing. The cast and crew were not paid (-there, said ) hehe. So, only people who really catch your vision will run with you, especially when they don’t have any monetary gains from it. Even those actors were not paid, and only did it for the love of helping us make this film get to pass.
Friendship and professionalism, both working together, are very important elements that members in the film making should have. We could just talk freely about our suggestions, and things that need improvement without hesitation that the party might get offended.
Another important value I have learned is that most of my team mates have low tolerance for mediocrity. I mean, we have constraints in our ability ( both that of the cast and crew), equipment used, etcetera, but with what we have, we make the best out of them.
Himaya Productions: The Name
During one of our meetings, we discussed that we needed a name, so we could put on our OBB and also at the end of the credit list. We came up with a few names, and decided to call it, “Himaya”. It is a Cebuano term that means “glory” or “bliss”, and it sounds “happy”. Lol.
( Yesterday, a student in UCLM ( during the film showing at the school ) asked Zy: “Why Himaya?”. Zy replied, “because we want to bring back the glory to God ).Zy was right.
Papil sa Panganduy was first shown in CNU Katarungan Hall with my professor and classmates as the viewers last October 23. Some friends were also able to watch it. The Trailer was posted on Facebook last October 26:
It was then shown on FB last October 30:
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1464122359248&oid=101486896587693&comments&ref=mf
Since then, the film has been “shared” by some people. People sent messages, and we’re grateful about that.
( This film is for the women who have always been in my mind. You are special and beautiful in God’s eyes. You will forever be my inspiration. )
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Hopefully, we can come up with more substantial films. by God’s grace. And for His glory.
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“Like” the Himaya page on fb for more info and updates:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Himaya-Productions/101486896587693
Monday, November 15, 2010
Can the MOD meet his LTP?
My MOD just greeted me for the first time ( in about 7 years) a good afternoon greeting.
And his mom and I exchange words of "love", and "God bless yous", and "I appreciate you for everything".
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and i...
Not concluding, but just recording. ^^
And his mom and I exchange words of "love", and "God bless yous", and "I appreciate you for everything".
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and i...
Not concluding, but just recording. ^^
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Timely MAX...isn't this what i have just said?
Pause on Purpose
by Max Lucado
Come aside by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while.
Mark 6:31
Ernie Johnson Jr. knows baseball. His father announced three decades’ worth of major-league games, following the Braves from Milwaukee to Atlanta. In the quarter century since Ernie inherited the microphone, he has covered six sports on three continents, voicing blowouts and nail-biters, interviewing losers and buzzer beaters.
But one game stands out above all the rest. Not because of who played, but because of who stopped playing. Ernie was a nine-year-old Little Leaguer, dutifully playing shortstop. An opposing batter hit a ground rule double that bounced over the fence. Two outfielders scampered over the fence to retrieve the ball so the game could continue. (Apparently the league operated on a tight budget.)
Both teams waited for them to return. They waited … and waited … but no one appeared. Concerned coaches finally jogged into the outfield and scaled the fence. Curious players, including Ernie, followed them. They found the missing duo just a few feet beyond the fence, gloves dropped on the ground, found ball at their feet, blackberries and smiles on their faces.
The two players had stepped away from the game.
How long since you did the same? We need regular recalibrations. Besides, who couldn’t use a few blackberries? But who has time to gather them? You have carpools to run; businesses to run; sales efforts to run; machines, organizations, and budgets to run. You gotta run.
Jesus understands. He knew the frenzy of life. People back-to-backed his calendar with demands. But he also knew how to step away from the game.
Having withstood the devil’s wilderness temptation and his hometown’s harsh rejection, Jesus journeyed to Capernaum, where the citizens give him a ticker-tape reception.
They were astonished at His teaching. (Luke 4:32)
The story of what he had done spread like wildfire throughout the whole region. (v. 37 NLT)
People throughout the village brought sick family members to Jesus. No matter what their diseases were, the touch of his hand healed every one. (v. 40 NLT)
Could Christ want more? Enthralled masses, just-healed believers, and thousands who will go where he leads. So Jesus …
Rallied a movement?
Organized a leadership team?
Mobilized a political-action society?
No. He baffled the public-relations experts by placing the mob in the rearview mirror and ducking into a wildlife preserve, a hidden cove, a vacant building, a deserted place.
Verse 42 identifies the reason: “the crowd … tried to keep Him from leaving them.”
More than once he exercised crowd control. “When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he told his followers to go to the other side of the lake” (Matt. 8:18 NCV).
When the crowd ridiculed his power to raise a girl from the dead, he evicted them from the premises. “After the crowd had been thrown out of the house, Jesus went into the girl’s room and took hold of her hand, and she stood up” (Matt. 9:25 NCV).
After a day of teaching, “Jesus left the crowd and went into the house” (Matt. 13:36 NCV).
Though surrounded by possibly twenty thousand fans, he turned away from them: “After Jesus had sent the crowds away” (Matt. 15:39 CEV).
Christ repeatedly escaped the noise of the crowd in order to hear the voice of God.
He resisted the undertow of the people by anchoring to the rock of his purpose: employing his uniqueness (to “preach … to the other cities also”) to make a big deal out of God (“the kingdom of God”) everywhere he could.
And aren’t you glad he did? Suppose he had heeded the crowd and set up camp in Capernaum, reasoning, “I thought the whole world was my target and the cross my destiny. But the entire town tells me to stay in Capernaum. Could all these people be wrong?”
Yes, they could! In defiance of the crowd, Jesus turned his back on the Capernaum pastorate and followed the will of God. Doing so meant leaving some sick people unhealed and some confused people untaught. He said no to good things so he could say yes to the right thing: his unique call.
Not an easy choice for anyone.
God may want you to leave your Capernaum, but you’re staying. Or he may want you to stay, and you’re leaving. How can you know unless you mute the crowd and meet with Jesus in a deserted place?
“Deserted” need not mean desolate, just quiet. Simply a place to which you, like Jesus, depart. “Now when it was day, He departed” (Luke 4:42). “Depart” presupposes a decision on the part of Jesus. “I need to get away. To think. To ponder. To rechart my course.” He determined the time, selected a place. With resolve, he pressed the pause button on his life.
The devil implants taximeters in our brains. We hear the relentless tick, tick, tick telling us to hurry, hurry, hurry, time is money … resulting in this roaring blur called the human race.
But Jesus stands against the tide, countering the crescendo with these words: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest” (Matt. 11:28). Follow the example of Jesus, who “often withdrew into the wilderness and prayed” (Luke 5:16).
God rested after six days of work, and the world didn’t collapse. What makes us think it will if we do? (Or do we fear it won’t?)
And while you are there, enjoy some blackberries.
From Cure for the Common Life: Living in Your Sweet Spot
Copyright (Thomas Nelson, 2005) Max Lucado
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Listen my child To what Your father teaches you today....
1 Listen, my sons, to a father's instruction; pay attention and gain understanding.
2 I give you sound learning, so do not forsake my teaching.
3 When I was a boy in my father's house, still tender, and an only child of my mother,
4 he taught me and said, "Lay hold of my words with all your heart; keep my commands and you will live.
5 Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or swerve from them.
6 Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you.
7 Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, [a] get understanding.
8 Esteem her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honor you.
9 She will set a garland of grace on your head and present you with a crown of splendor."
10 Listen, my son, accept what I say, and the years of your life will be many.
11 I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths.
12 When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble.
13 Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.
14 Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evil men.
15 Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn from it and go on your way.
16 For they cannot sleep till they do evil; they are robbed of slumber till they make someone fall.
17 They eat the bread of wickedness and drink the wine of violence.
18 The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
19 But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness; they do not know what makes them stumble.
20 My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words.
21 Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart;
22 for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.
23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
24 Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you.
26 Make level [b] paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm.
27 Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.
2 I give you sound learning, so do not forsake my teaching.
3 When I was a boy in my father's house, still tender, and an only child of my mother,
4 he taught me and said, "Lay hold of my words with all your heart; keep my commands and you will live.
5 Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or swerve from them.
6 Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you.
7 Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, [a] get understanding.
8 Esteem her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honor you.
9 She will set a garland of grace on your head and present you with a crown of splendor."
10 Listen, my son, accept what I say, and the years of your life will be many.
11 I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths.
12 When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble.
13 Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.
14 Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evil men.
15 Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn from it and go on your way.
16 For they cannot sleep till they do evil; they are robbed of slumber till they make someone fall.
17 They eat the bread of wickedness and drink the wine of violence.
18 The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
19 But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness; they do not know what makes them stumble.
20 My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words.
21 Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart;
22 for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.
23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
24 Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you.
26 Make level [b] paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm.
27 Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.
---Proverbs 4
Monday, October 18, 2010
Raisin In the Salad
I've just come back, and I have been having this mirth all the time. Maybe God has been touching me with joy or something.
^^
God has been good.
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I just hope people claiming to be Christians would stop making Christianity as a raisin to a salad. It's like becoming a form of religion or ritual or affiliation. but, it's not...it's more than that. CHRIST-ianity is more like blood to a person...you cannot live without it.
It is an intimacy with your Savior. It is a relationship.
If one has not been conscious of sins, the very things that displease or violate the law of the God of love...I would say, one has not really built that love at all.
It is a shame. It's a shame that they who are privileged to know about Christ...to be involved in a bible believing church...those who have all the opportunity to behold Him...they have taken these things for granted.
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Living like they do not need a Father to instruct them. Oh, how Christ has been misrepresented.
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I mourn not because I judge them for being hypos. But I mourn that they sometimes publicly humiliate Christ whose name they carry by their speech and by the way they live.
Denying Christ for a minute of fame.
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Spat upon. Beaten. Blood shut eyes. Crowned with thorns. NAked. nailed on the cross. heart pierced. blood dropped to the ground.
...and you still say I am Extreme?
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It is our lack of trust that we disobey.
When do we say to Him...
you are worthy of everything...even our obedience...?
When do we really revere or simply LOVE Him...?
When do we really believe Him if what we're doing is contrary to what He preaches...?
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and even amidst all of our unfaithfulness...He remains faithful.
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You Love never fails, Jesus!
I Own The Notebook...
for now.so i rule it. haha. My siblings are going to be out for a couple of days. my sister has just gone to Manila for a business appointment. And my bro has just gone to a retreat. they are back on friday! ^^ yeey. so a week of notebook-ing for me!
so expect a flood of posts from me ^^ this week i have learned SO much. learning can never be exhausted.
I have learned that trading off something valuable for something cheap can happen not only to the dumb but for most intellectual of men as well. Guess it's true that being wise is different from mere being smart or something.
And no matter what, there is a monster inside each of us. we will just have to learn to control it...or if not, we let it bow down to our prowess...letting that monster know who the boss is.
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anyway, im leaving in a second hehe. so, all these other realizations and etc....will be later posted. ^^ the weather is cool. i just remember autumn. and suddenly, i feel courageous again.
The autumn in Australia,I was. I surmise, how I had felt at that time. i would call that autumn..."Wounded in a battle, but Victory was mine".
^^ see yah later! im quite enjoying the drip, and everythin. will be hanging out with friends...jogging around It Park at dusk...^^ we may not witness the sunset...but maybe ^^ this time...even winds console us...^^ they are our brother ...hmm poems and more poems...!!! ^^
***thank you God.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Free Newspapers
" Yeah, they say, what's the use of giving these people free newspapers about iPad? They cannot afford it anyway..."
" But when they see it, and know about it, they will start to dream about it. and when they do, they will start to do something about it". .
Saturday, October 16, 2010
I befriended Immaturity, and Blindness loved me…but Prosperity rejected me.
When I Befriended Immaturity . . .
Immaturity is a happy-go-lucky, and I immediately liked her.
She wears a smile all the time, telling me, things are “gonna be ohight mahn” , “juz don’t mind that little problahm of youhs and that leetle prohblam will go away”
And do I so take her advice. She is simply “cool”.
When I had a fight with Discipline, my once loyal best friend, I did go to Immaturity. Like an angel sent from heaven, there she told me once again, “hey mahn, Discipline just wants to change you, mahn. Tha’ kill joy, mahn. Oh I hate that kinda people.” I ditched Discipline. From then on… Immaturity has become my new best friend.
I played games with Immaturity, like the “ Life-is-too-short, so- chill”game, “ It’s-okay-to-violate-rules-as-long-as-no-one-knows-about-it”game, “Be happy and don’t care who you-might-step-on” game, and “Discipline-and-her-followers-should-die” game.
Immaturity is a happy-go-lucky, and I immediately liked her.
She wears a smile all the time, telling me, things are “gonna be ohight mahn” , “juz don’t mind that little problahm of youhs and that leetle prohblam will go away”
And do I so take her advice. She is simply “cool”.
When I had a fight with Discipline, my once loyal best friend, I did go to Immaturity. Like an angel sent from heaven, there she told me once again, “hey mahn, Discipline just wants to change you, mahn. Tha’ kill joy, mahn. Oh I hate that kinda people.” I ditched Discipline. From then on… Immaturity has become my new best friend.
I played games with Immaturity, like the “ Life-is-too-short, so- chill”game, “ It’s-okay-to-violate-rules-as-long-as-no-one-knows-about-it”game, “Be happy and don’t care who you-might-step-on” game, and “Discipline-and-her-followers-should-die” game.
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Then I met Blindness…
Blindness is Immaturity’s beautiful, beautiful mother. She shines like a queen in a kingdom. She never ages. Her beauty never fades. Men adore her. Young women admire her.
Her words are aroma to the entire place. People listen to her.
Immaturity is just one of Blindness’s children. Among her siblings known are Small Vision, Mediocrity, Vanity, Folly, and Stupidity.
When I was at their glamorous house, we had a feast on the bread of idleness, cake of hypocrisy, and wine of childishness.
***********to be continued! ~~~ ^^
Then I met Blindness…
Blindness is Immaturity’s beautiful, beautiful mother. She shines like a queen in a kingdom. She never ages. Her beauty never fades. Men adore her. Young women admire her.
Her words are aroma to the entire place. People listen to her.
Immaturity is just one of Blindness’s children. Among her siblings known are Small Vision, Mediocrity, Vanity, Folly, and Stupidity.
When I was at their glamorous house, we had a feast on the bread of idleness, cake of hypocrisy, and wine of childishness.
***********to be continued! ~~~ ^^
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